Occasionally, I get to have those ‘from now on’ moments. I make decisions and promises that eventually I can’t follow through.  I am a victim of making ‘big’ decisions where I decide to make drastic changes into my life.

This fires me up because it looks like a redemption and a start of a new era. The 2.0 version of me is about to kick in. I look ready to forget my past self and pursue this new one that has numerous potential.

But I forget something, I forget that it's just motivation and it will fade at some point. I forget that some of my decisions will depend on third party’s consent and reaction. I forget to analyse the effects of my new decisions.

Everything goes on smoothly, the new me is breeding until I hit a wall. So now I have to improvise which leads to more mess. The mess created is now way worse than my old version. So what do I do? I pack my remains and go back to that old version cause I can’t follow through.